Someday

Someday you’ll realize
After all that has passed by
Sunsets and Sunrises long forgotten
Were the best days of your life

Someday you’ll realize
After all that has passed by
Smiles and tears you took for granted
Were the best times in your life

Someday you’ll realize
After all that has passed by
People and places you never cared for
Were the best parts of your life

Someday you’ll realize
After all that has passed by
The grass was the greenest
On your side of Life

From Me to You

I sit near my window, the moon is shining,
No other sound, just my heart beating,
Got my pen and paper, the words start flowing,
I feel it now, as I start writing,

Dear you, Hey how are you,
Just wanted to say I’m thinkin’ of you
The distance has got me feelin’ blue
But I hope this letter brings me closer to you,
So many things I wanna say,
I hope they can all be conveyed,
When you read this later, I hope you’ll know,
This letter’s with love from me to you.

It’s getting’ late,
The clock is ticking,
On an emotional high,
The tears start falling,
I think of you,
And I keep on writing,

Dear you, Sometimes I miss you,
Just wanted to say I don’t wanna be without you,
The things I feel , I know are true,
I wonder if it means the same for you,
I feel so much, don’t think words are enough,
Somethings I just can’t say enough,
When you read this later I hope you’ll know,
This letter’s with love from me to you.

How do I tell you how much I care,
How do I tell you all the things I’m afraid of,
A thousand letters
Still won’t cover it

Dear you, Do you know,
Just wanted to say I’d do anything for you,
So here ends my letter, my first to you,
Imagine me readin’ it out to you,
Kisses and Hugs are embedded too,
And if you didn’t already know,
P.S I love you so,
In this letter with love, from me to you.

This is me!

I love to stay in bed all day,
I love to roam in pajamas all day,
I love to read, especially fairytales,
I love to have things happen my way.

I love to curl up in my cozy bed,
With my teddy bear and hot chocolate,
I love winter, summer, spring and fall,
I love fall and winter best of all.

I love to get wet and dance in the rain,
I love to feel snow flakes on my face,
I love to crunch on fallen leaves in my way,
I love to catch fire flies on a warm summer day.

I love the colors black and white,
I love to care and give my love,
I love to wish upon the stars,
I love to just believe in God.

I love to sing when I'm in the shower,
I love to dress up with make up and flowers,
I love to dance in front of my mirror,
I love living for the moment, always and forever.

I always wear my heart on my sleeve,
That's my strength and my weakness, I feel,
I cry when I'm happy, more so when I'm sad,
I laugh and I blush, to me thats natural.

I worry that I don't look my age,
I worry I don't have a pretty face,
I worry that I'll never gain weight,
I worry that I'll say short always.

I worry what people will think of me,
I worry I'm not worth anything,
I worry no one will love me for me,
I worry too much about everything.

Sometimes I hate the way I am,
Sometimes I wish I could be better,
Sometimes I wish I could say whatever,
Sometimes I wish I could live forever.

Sometimes I daydream about the future,
Sometimes I prefer to wait and see,
Sometimes I wish I expressed myself better,
Sometimes I wish I could be someone's forever.

Sometimes I care a little too much,
Sometimes I worry a little too much,
Sometimes I love a little too much,
Sometimes I think I'm me, A little too much.

[well the pic obviously isn't me :P]

Touched by an Angel

I believe that Angels do exist.
In fact I believe they walk among us every day.
Thousands of nameless Angels, God’s silent gift to us.
I mentioned in my earlier post (Friend) that friends are Angels in disguise. What I didn’t mention was that there are so many other Angels among us, not just our friends or family but also complete strangers.
How could a complete stranger be an Angel?
To answer that I want to define what an Angel is.
‘Wikipedia’ states that “Angels are spiritual beings found in many religious traditions. They are broadly viewed as messengers of God, sent to do God's tasks.”
‘Dictionary.com’ states that Angels are “A typically benevolent celestial being that acts as an intermediary between heaven and earth.”
These definitions apply very well when concerned to religion or mythology but that’s not what I have in mind.
I don’t want to go into religion or mythology or their influences and beliefs over the centuries.
Instead, I want to write about a more simple idea that appeals to me.
I don’t believe an Angel has to be a divine, glowing entity with wings and a golden harp.
My definition of an Angel is more consistent with these definitions I found on ‘dictionary.com’.
“A guardian spirit or guiding influence”
“A kind and lovable person; one who manifests goodness, purity, and selflessness.”
According to me an Angel is anyone (stranger, friends or family) who shows love and kindness. An Angel is someone who is there when you need them and at the time feel like you've seen a small piece of God on earth.
Now back to how even a stranger can be an Angel.
A year ago when I had to travel home by bus at night I was more than nervous. I had never travelled by bus alone anywhere in the daytime, let alone at night. In fact I had never travelled alone anywhere by myself. I didn’t even know how close to home the bus would drop me. Bad decision on my part, I know. Anyway, I didn’t even know which ticket to buy and I just silently prayed to God to get me home. A lady who was sitting behind me saw the way I was nervously fumbling with the ticket I had bought and asked “Where is your stop?” I told her where it was and she told me not to worry and that she was getting off at the stop after mine. When it came time for my stop she alerted me and asked the bus driver to stop. Then she also told me which bus I should take next to get home. I reached home safely that night thanks to that stranger.
Maybe this story won’t seem as big a deal but to me in that situation she was my heaven-send. It was only due to her that I managed to calm down and reach home. At that point I could only think of her as an Angel. I was a stranger to her and yet she helped me.
Lots of things like this happen every day. The help doesn’t always have to be huge and life-changing. Just a small act of kindness goes a long way.
Kindness doesn’t only have to be to humans alone.
A friend of mine loves animals, especially dogs. In fact the reason I was able to overcome my fear of dogs a little (not completely) was because of her. I remember once when we were walking down the street, we saw a stray dog in a very pathetic and sad condition. She looked at it and she took her snack from her bag and gave it to the dog. The dog ate it gratefully and wagging its tail followed us around for sometime (much to my dismay). This was just a simple act of kindness. I never would have given a second thought to the dog but she did. And that act of kindness even to the dog made me realize how goodness can be spread in little ways.
And isn’t that what Angels do? Spread goodness and kindness?
Goodness and Kindness can be spread by thoughts too.
Before leaving to church one day I decided to ask my friends if they wanted me to pray for anything. All my friends immediately replied asking me to pray for something or the other for them (absolutely nothing wrong with that), all except for one friend. He asked me to pray for everyone’s health and happiness, not just for himself. It really touched my heart that he thought of others and wanted to pray for them. It made me realize that goodness and love can even be spread through our thoughts and prayers.
I’ve been blessed with so many Angels in my life. I don’t know what I’d do without them. I’m extremely thankful for them.
They have taught me that Angels exist everywhere. That an Angel doesn’t have to have wings but rather the goodness and love bring them their radiant glow and halo.
They have taught me that kindness, no matter how small, goes a long way.
That goodness comes from the heart and not just from the actions.
That purity of heart shows in the way you think and talk.
That love is unconditional and does not have to be reserved for some alone.
And that anyone can be Angel.
Your kindness or love may not be repaid or returned but surely you would have earned the postion of an Angel in the hearts that you touch and in the eyes of God.
"Be an angel to someone else whenever you can, as a way of thanking God for the help your angel has given you."

If Only...

It's crowded in the cafe,

He's sitting across from me,

Holding my hands and

Telling my about his day.

I'm nodding my head,

Trying hard to concentrate,

The crowd is getting hazy,

I can only see his face.

And if only he knew what I was thinkin',

He'd know that,

His eyes hold a powerful magic over me,

When he talks his voice just mesmerizes me,

When he holds my hands I feel like I'm home,

And when he smiles, he leaves me breathless,

With tears in my eyes,

And if I could only tell him,
I never wanna lose him,

If only I could find the words to say...

If only...

He's asking me something now,

He's waving his hands,

Trying to get my attention.

I realize he's stopped talkin',

And I am still starin',

He's asking me whats wrong,

All I can do is blush and say nothin'.

If only he knew what I was thinkin',

He'd know that,

His presence makes me forget everything else on my mind,

When he's around everyone else just fade into the background,

Just seein' his name on my cell phone is enough to brighten my day,

And if only I could tell him,
I'd do anything for him,

If only I could find the words to say...

If only...

"Come back down to earth" he says'

"You've had your head in the clouds all day"

And I'm thinkin',

Oh, If only you knew,

You mean more to me than all this world can offer,

You turn my world upside down when you hold me in your arms,

You drive me to the edge of sanity, and I don't really mind the fall,

And if I could only tell you,

Just how much I love you,

If I could only find the words to say...

If only...

Because of you / The reasons why

I never thought I'd see you again,

I was fine, I'd moved on,

But here you are,

Standing right in front of me.

You're talking and smiling,

Playing with my hair,

You're charms, they don't work anymore,

I see you for who you are now.

All the emotions I'd buried,

All the pain and lies,

Everthing I'd tried to forget,

I'm starting to remember now.

The reasons why I left you,

The reasons why I wanna run and hide,

The reasons why I cried so many nights,

The reasons why I ran away from myself,

The reasons why I never wanted to trust another man,

The reasons why I never wanted to love,

All the reasons why I locked my heart up

...and threw the key away.

You're trying to hold my hands again,

Just like old times, you tell me,

But I just wanna pull away.

You say that I look beautiful,

You say you want to start over,

But this time I won't falter.

All the tears I'd controlled,

All the hurt I'd kept down,

Everything I thought was gone,

I'm starting to feel again.

The reasons why I'm standin' in the cold,

The reasons why the tears won't stop falling,

The reasons why I hated your touch,

The reaons why I hate looking in the mirror,

The reasons why I can't get close to anyone,

The reasons why I feel lost and alone,

All the reasons why I locked my heart up

... and threw the key away.

I was hiding from myself,

But he found me, he restored me,

And I appreciate him more now,

Because of you...

Now the darkness is surrounding me,

And I think there's no escape,

But then I hear his voice pull me back,

And I remember all the reasons why,

The reasons why I opened up again,

The reasons why I trusted again,

The reasons why I believe in all that is good and true,

The reasons why I love his touch,

The reasons why I love him so much,

The reasons I feel so happy and complete,

The reasons why I go to bed with a smile,

The reasons why he means so much to me,

The reasons why I never wanna lose him,

...and it's all because of you.

New Beginning

Dew drops on a leaf,

Whispers in the wind,

A silent message nobody understands.

Pure and innocent like a child,

Taking one step at a time,

My life is just beginning.

I'm just starting to explore,

I'm being born once more

I'm trying to crack the code of life,

Unravel all its mysteries

Everything seems new,

My life is just beginning.

A shooting star,

A twinkle in the night sky,

A silent message nobody understands.

Pretty, fragrant, like a rose

I'm ready to bloom

My life is just beginning.

I'm just starting to explore,

I'm being born once more,

I'm trying to crack the code of life,

Unravel all its mysteries

Everything seems new,

My life is just beginning.

[ My very first song...

A friend of mine was the first one i shared this song with...

He was the one who encouraged me and even put it up on his blog...

I'm always thankful to him...

You know who you are :) ]